Lord, I have heard you.

You guys, God is good. But you know what else my God is? Funny. I usually try to write in cryptic messages when I blog about something a bit personal, but this one? I’m about to spill. To be honest, if anything, I just find the whole situation hilarious—like, my Gahd!

So, I’ve been working at my current job for over a year now, and in that time, I have applied for over five jobs within the company. Some I got interviews for, some I didn’t even make it past the application stage, but ultimately, I was not hired for any of them.

Now, every time I get rejected, I tell myself that I should stop applying for jobs within this company and look elsewhere. Something in my head and heart has told me this. Even my family has told me this. But because I have a coconut head, I keep doing it.

So here comes this job—I was encouraged by the manager of the team hiring for the role to apply because they thought I’d be a great candidate. I told my family about it, and they said, “Don’t apply.” And although I had told myself last time that I wouldn’t apply again, I said to myself, “I won’t tell anybody I’m applying until I actually get the job.” Because, for once, it looked like there might actually be a chance for meeeee.

Guys, tell me why I went through the week enjoying my time, only to check my junk email on Wednesday and see that they had already rejected my application on Monday. And guess who rejected it? MY MANAGER!! Because apparently, my manager is the one helping that team with recruiting for the role. Mind you, this is a new manager that they assigned to me, now I don’t know what to do, do I have a conversation with him about it? Do I just pretend it never happened? Lord, I have heard you ,issokayyyy, I am tired of these bloody rejections.

Disney gif. Donald Duck sits up in bed with half open eyes. He closes them as goes to lay back down and pulls the covers over him to hide.

You guyssssss, I have had a-bloody-enough. Now, this is too funny, and it’s also crazy. Lord, for real for real this time I have heard you. I know I have been going back and forth for a while now, but this is my promise to myself, I will never apply for another role in this company. I’m done.

Lord, I have heard you loud and clearrrrrrrr.